Omg I'm realising this blog is getting boring! Lol! Lol yeah I've been keeping the fun stuff to me o_O
Well I have a new crush. LOl
His name is Nathanael Morin. Ain't that a cute name, Nathanael? It sounds good in french anyway. I barely know him though. I'm too shy to talk to him. I'm not shy usually. But lately, my life is total crap. I enter the college, and I feel unhappy and down of a sudden. Weird huh? And to be honest, I'm total crap at making new friends. Maybe because it's my first year, it's doomed to be crap. I wish I had a picture of Nat. Maybe on the school's website. Ima check right now. Just checked, nothing at all. Hopeless lol nuuuuuu
Also, there's this intolerance, or gastric problem, that's making my life crap right now. Like uber uber uber crap. But things will get better when I find and fix that problem. I'm the kind of person that is very linked to my body. My body feels bad, I feel bad. My body is sublimely happy, then I'm sublimely happy lol. I've also put a little weight lately. Because I felt like crap I guess I was eating more. I think I gained like 5-7 pounds. Baddddd.
Switchin subject woot? But also there's a part of me that feels as if I do not deserve Nathanael, he's like perfect in my eyes lol. I feel like total crap, I've just put on weight, how can I deserve him? Of course, that's illogical thinking, but the back of my mind is thinking that.
Of course, many times I feel as if, alright why not just give him up and not try anything? But I can't. And what is the most amazing, is that I keep dreaming about him! I fell for him since like idk 3-4 months. During that period of time, dreamt of him 8-10 times, I stopped counting lol! That's more than all of the dam crushed I've had in my life! Of course, the dreams were not as smexy as the dreams of others. But in most dreams I become friends + possibly more with him, and I'm happy. Some other dreams are less fun, I feel uneasy and I don't talk to him much. I take it the first dreams are about what I want, and the second ones are what I fear, or my mental barries. Pretty much, all my problems this year came from my lack of losing control. The school is new, and I don't like it. Not cool. Too much hours of work.
But yeah, theres what. 2.5 months left? Enough to lose 7 pounds, and give Nathanael a shot. No way, I'm really pathetic not doing anything about this. Anyone normal would have walked to him day 1 and got a date. But, as I said, my body is being crap, I feel like crap, I can't take this on... for now.
Well I have a new crush. LOl
His name is Nathanael Morin. Ain't that a cute name, Nathanael? It sounds good in french anyway. I barely know him though. I'm too shy to talk to him. I'm not shy usually. But lately, my life is total crap. I enter the college, and I feel unhappy and down of a sudden. Weird huh? And to be honest, I'm total crap at making new friends. Maybe because it's my first year, it's doomed to be crap. I wish I had a picture of Nat. Maybe on the school's website. Ima check right now. Just checked, nothing at all. Hopeless lol nuuuuuu
Also, there's this intolerance, or gastric problem, that's making my life crap right now. Like uber uber uber crap. But things will get better when I find and fix that problem. I'm the kind of person that is very linked to my body. My body feels bad, I feel bad. My body is sublimely happy, then I'm sublimely happy lol. I've also put a little weight lately. Because I felt like crap I guess I was eating more. I think I gained like 5-7 pounds. Baddddd.
Switchin subject woot? But also there's a part of me that feels as if I do not deserve Nathanael, he's like perfect in my eyes lol. I feel like total crap, I've just put on weight, how can I deserve him? Of course, that's illogical thinking, but the back of my mind is thinking that.
Of course, many times I feel as if, alright why not just give him up and not try anything? But I can't. And what is the most amazing, is that I keep dreaming about him! I fell for him since like idk 3-4 months. During that period of time, dreamt of him 8-10 times, I stopped counting lol! That's more than all of the dam crushed I've had in my life! Of course, the dreams were not as smexy as the dreams of others. But in most dreams I become friends + possibly more with him, and I'm happy. Some other dreams are less fun, I feel uneasy and I don't talk to him much. I take it the first dreams are about what I want, and the second ones are what I fear, or my mental barries. Pretty much, all my problems this year came from my lack of losing control. The school is new, and I don't like it. Not cool. Too much hours of work.
But yeah, theres what. 2.5 months left? Enough to lose 7 pounds, and give Nathanael a shot. No way, I'm really pathetic not doing anything about this. Anyone normal would have walked to him day 1 and got a date. But, as I said, my body is being crap, I feel like crap, I can't take this on... for now.
posted by Deliciously Demented at 8:17 p.m.
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