Realisation

Have you ever felt that thrill? That unexplainable feeling. I don't have words to describe it. Maybe is it the momentum, the feeling of having experienced something far beyond anything the real world, or the ordinary life. The realisation of certain things, away from what is normal. Something passionate, progressive, something sipping into your mind, an idea mixing itself on a stone wall somewhere. It has nothing to do with any senses, nothing to do with anything at all.
Movies.. For some people, when they watch a movie, it touches them, changes them. For most people, it's an entertainement, that leaves them untouched. They stay connected to reality, all day long. All their life long. Maybe am I wrong, maybe is everything like me, being changed by certain things. How would I know? Laughs is only what I would get if I tired to explain that to someone. But somewhere, a few seconds ago, I reminded myself that as a child I had the feeling the I perceived certain things that others didn't. And right now I would simply say that some people feel it, and most don't.
I watched a movie today, a wonderful one aswell, Batman Returns from Tim Burton. There is certain moments from that movie that I'll never forget. And I felt it, clearer that ever, that feeling. At the end of the movie, it overwelmed me during a few moments. Very clear and present. Again, I can hardly describe it, it just is. Then my mother coughed and came to get a glass of water, and I felt like killing her. That fooling, normal gesture, brought me suddenly back from my cloud. Those feelings, they never stay... And seeing a movie for the first time is way different that seeing it for a second time. Second time, a part of the magic is gone..
If I recapitulate the latest movies I saw, Aeon Flux touched me, Batman Begins (2005) touched me very little, HP4 very little, and this one very much.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory touched me very much aswell, but in another way.. To be honest, that movie did something to me... And thinking about it right now, it hit hard.. I couldn't confess it at that time, but right now.. Wow.. The first time I saw it, in french, it barely touched me but I felt that there was something more to it, and for a reason, a wonderful one, I felt I needed to see it again, but in english. And when I saw it in english, it was wonderful. I still remember the song they played in the IMAX room, the strange smell in the air. For minutes after the end of the movie I was on a cloud, but then I felt strange, sad, felt that something was wrong. Still, I would strangle anyone saying movies are futile. A movie did this to me. I felt soo strange, why? I have no clue. I needed to watch it again. Now, thinking at it, maybe it was because I needed to go back on that cloud. Some sort of Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, chocolate mixted kind of drug. Drug? I know what being on drugs feels like, and it has nothing to do with all of this. I needed to see it again and again, until the magic was all sucked. Sucked into me that is. A stone wall, a very unique one, was being written, perhaps is it a way to explain it. But I feel that isn't very accurate either.
Todays movie, The return of batman, was great.. The character of Christopher Walken got my total and complete attention during the movie. In some way he reminds me of Johnny Depp; high cheek bones, skeletal face, somewhat feminine, his eyes.. There was the scene in which Walken pulls the girl out of the window.. That was incredible. From the moment he surprised the girl in his papers, I was like wow. Twisted between the uncertainty whether he was about to kiss her (should have seen his eyes!) or strangle her. Then the clear revelation that he is actually evil.. I couldn't help but say WOW.. Couldn't get my eyes off him all movie long, off my thoughts either.. How he dies at the end is incredible..
I found on a website(http://www.ed-wood.net/batman_returns.htm) a review on the movie and I couldn't believe it: that guy felt something alike to me in all points. A sentence caught my attention: "Un traumatisme total qui m'a fait découvrir des sommets émotionnels dont je n'imaginais pas l'existence". Wow.. For you unfortunate non-french speaking loonies, that means: "A total traumatism which made me discover emotional tops whose I did not imagine the existence". Tim Burton is a pure genius.. I'm going to rent all his movies.. There's SOMETHING about his movies. Tim Burton has certain obsessions I'm starting to notice, and he's making us watch them. It's a totally mental things. He's exposing his madness, desires, obsessions, dreams, needs.. And when we watch his movies we get in the middle of it all, in a world of nuttyness... (speechless)