Stephanie.. If atleast you could read this
Dam you Stéphanie Proulx Cabana! I can't think when you're around! I need to control myself, prevent myself from staring at you all the time. And you, you have that presence, feels like you think all the time. It's unpleasant, really.
I wonder what you think about me, I even say to myself your too wonderful for me! Me that have a high self confidence like I do, that considers myself highly like I do.. It's just very unpleasant aswell. I used to hate you! Hate the way you liked to order people up, like I do. Even talked bad of you to friends. But now, I..
Love you? I have no idea. Is that love, obsession?
You perturb me! Idk how to act, what to say. I know you already had a boyfriend. I saw you french kiss him, last year. Was a bit hard to miss.. Yet, I would very well see myself at his place.You dumped him, he was a slacker, the exact opposite of you. Perhaps next time will you choose someone like you. Perhaps, if I made you understand that I loved you- or whatever I feel for you. Maybe I would feel better. But that, impossible.. How would I feel? What would I say? How, how to get such occasion? That is if I even find the courage.
Or maybe should I simply ignore you, act as if you were any of those people out there. Try to wash you from me. Tell myself your just a youth folly, a fake love, something that isn't meant to work tell myself that what I feel is ok, but that's all. Don't stare at you, let that feeling die. Prevent my head, my frigging imagination from working.
Idk what to do Stephanie, is it better to do something than to do nothing like I am doing right now.. I try to play cool, try to fake to be relaxed.. How the hell? I can't stay feeling like this..
If atleast you could read this, we could look eachother more meaningfully. Maybe it wouldn't work, maybe your not interested in that. But atleast you would understand, you would understand what that look is.. I don't need you to love me, for me to love you back..
Arrgh, get out of my head! Pictures of you everywhere! I stared at you a lot during today's class, I had just the right angle..
God.
I wonder what you think about me, I even say to myself your too wonderful for me! Me that have a high self confidence like I do, that considers myself highly like I do.. It's just very unpleasant aswell. I used to hate you! Hate the way you liked to order people up, like I do. Even talked bad of you to friends. But now, I..
Love you? I have no idea. Is that love, obsession?
You perturb me! Idk how to act, what to say. I know you already had a boyfriend. I saw you french kiss him, last year. Was a bit hard to miss.. Yet, I would very well see myself at his place.You dumped him, he was a slacker, the exact opposite of you. Perhaps next time will you choose someone like you. Perhaps, if I made you understand that I loved you- or whatever I feel for you. Maybe I would feel better. But that, impossible.. How would I feel? What would I say? How, how to get such occasion? That is if I even find the courage.
Or maybe should I simply ignore you, act as if you were any of those people out there. Try to wash you from me. Tell myself your just a youth folly, a fake love, something that isn't meant to work tell myself that what I feel is ok, but that's all. Don't stare at you, let that feeling die. Prevent my head, my frigging imagination from working.
Idk what to do Stephanie, is it better to do something than to do nothing like I am doing right now.. I try to play cool, try to fake to be relaxed.. How the hell? I can't stay feeling like this..
If atleast you could read this, we could look eachother more meaningfully. Maybe it wouldn't work, maybe your not interested in that. But atleast you would understand, you would understand what that look is.. I don't need you to love me, for me to love you back..
Arrgh, get out of my head! Pictures of you everywhere! I stared at you a lot during today's class, I had just the right angle..
God.
posted by Deliciously Demented at 4:33 p.m.
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