Tomorrow is the big day, getting operated. To be honest, I'm disgusted. They made me take laxatives today to "clean the intestines", but they didn't work, instead they gave me a stomach ache. Wow, thanks hospital for being so clever. Then tomorrow they will put me a tube somewhere in order to pee because I cant get up for 24 hours. Thats nasty, disgusting, and I don't need it. Pfff, 1/2 inch cut and I cant get up for 24 hours? Then during the operation, I'll be all naked! They said I would be under sterile w/e, but I'll still be nude. Ew, just ew. They might have the decency to leave my breasts alone. I might survive this physically, but mentally, I might not. You know, we have all those cute misconsceptions about the hospital.. Well the hospital is filth, I hope I never step into one of them ever again. Honestly, what I lived so far at the hospital was horrible, I'm already troubled by it. So this, this is just total destruction. Id rather die than to be humiliated, without a doubt. This is pure humiliation, to reduce a person with drugs, then taking them naked, making them drink tons of filthy stuff, then forcing them to stay in a room with sick people for days, it's disgusting, I am disgusted of them, in another life if it's possible, I swear I will kill all those who think they are superior, like a lot of the people in the hospitals, thinking highly of themselves because they put the patients down everyday of their lives. I am angry, sad, anxious. This wouldn't happen to me if I was a guy, I always wanted to be a guy, and goddamit I'm a girl. A guy doesn't have to any ovarian cyst, because thats what I have. A guy doesn't have to give a heck if he's nude, it doesn't matter. Goddamit, I am mad, and I swear here and now that I will get revenge.
posted by Deliciously Demented at 2:13 p.m.
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