Gay Bar: A Bleach yaoi amv

Bleach rulz, and this video is just so well made.

Snape sexy.

I found that video on youtube, it's hilarious. So cool.

Nat

I was telling myself to give up on Nathanael. But since the last message I made two dreams about him. Idk, it's as if someone out there was trying to push me to talk to him. ;O

I am not gluten intolerant! Nope, I got some exams, and I have a huge cyst. Mine is something like 20 cm x 15 cm. It's huge, right on my belly.
It's not cool because I need to wait 5 weeks before I can be opereated. But I'll lose something like 10 pounds when they'll remove it lol. Isn't that neat? I always thought that bumpy stomach was fat or something, even though I'm very thin everywhere else. But once they remove it, Ima be a top model lol. I'll be down to around 110 pounds. Then I gotta lose like 5 pouds to become perfect. Easy st0ff. But yeah it sucks to wait 5 weeks. But what is cool is that everyone will see my new thinner me before the end of classes hahaha. Ain't that neat? That gives me even more chances with Nathanael ;D

Omg I'm realising this blog is getting boring! Lol! Lol yeah I've been keeping the fun stuff to me o_O


Well I have a new crush. LOl
His name is Nathanael Morin. Ain't that a cute name, Nathanael? It sounds good in french anyway. I barely know him though. I'm too shy to talk to him. I'm not shy usually. But lately, my life is total crap. I enter the college, and I feel unhappy and down of a sudden. Weird huh? And to be honest, I'm total crap at making new friends. Maybe because it's my first year, it's doomed to be crap. I wish I had a picture of Nat. Maybe on the school's website. Ima check right now. Just checked, nothing at all. Hopeless lol nuuuuuu

Also, there's this intolerance, or gastric problem, that's making my life crap right now. Like uber uber uber crap. But things will get better when I find and fix that problem. I'm the kind of person that is very linked to my body. My body feels bad, I feel bad. My body is sublimely happy, then I'm sublimely happy lol. I've also put a little weight lately. Because I felt like crap I guess I was eating more. I think I gained like 5-7 pounds. Baddddd.

Switchin subject woot? But also there's a part of me that feels as if I do not deserve Nathanael, he's like perfect in my eyes lol. I feel like total crap, I've just put on weight, how can I deserve him? Of course, that's illogical thinking, but the back of my mind is thinking that.

Of course, many times I feel as if, alright why not just give him up and not try anything? But I can't. And what is the most amazing, is that I keep dreaming about him! I fell for him since like idk 3-4 months. During that period of time, dreamt of him 8-10 times, I stopped counting lol! That's more than all of the dam crushed I've had in my life! Of course, the dreams were not as smexy as the dreams of others. But in most dreams I become friends + possibly more with him, and I'm happy. Some other dreams are less fun, I feel uneasy and I don't talk to him much. I take it the first dreams are about what I want, and the second ones are what I fear, or my mental barries. Pretty much, all my problems this year came from my lack of losing control. The school is new, and I don't like it. Not cool. Too much hours of work.

But yeah, theres what. 2.5 months left? Enough to lose 7 pounds, and give Nathanael a shot. No way, I'm really pathetic not doing anything about this. Anyone normal would have walked to him day 1 and got a date. But, as I said, my body is being crap, I feel like crap, I can't take this on... for now.

Easter

Yeah it's easter. I went to eat with my mother and granny at like 1pm. Then it took forever because my granny can't walk and all. She's also pretty much crazy, and has short term memory loss. Then we went shopping for granny. Gran:"Are these towel paper?" Me:"Yeah". (5 mins later) Do we have towel paper? Yeah... (5 mins later) We got toilet paper. Um no, those are towel paper. .. See the kind?
And omg I ate too much candy. I ate a huge chocolate bunny. Jelly beans. I told my mother to not buy me any chocolate, or I'd eat it. But forget it, she doesn't listen and buys me candy anyway. Then after the shopping, we came back home at like 5-6pm. Then we watched a movie. Then we watched another movie. I ate all the chocolate left. Then I ate a whole bag of popcorn. Needless to say I feel huge right now. Like elephant huge. My belly is going insane right now, it's bloated and everything. This is a real disaster lol. But yeah, see that, I ate all those wheat products, would expain the big stomach.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go at the medical clinic to ask for my blood test gluten intolerance results. Been 3 weeks, they should have the results by now. The canadian health service is free, but it's total crap. Small things take forever. Imagine people who have chronic diseases and all?
Nyway.